Saturday morning bed-blogging. What a luxury :-) And the highlight of a week that has been, to be blunt, a motherfucker.The definite "stand out" for me was hitting a mental wall at about 3pm on Wednesday afternoon and pretty much losing the plot, in front of an open plan floor full of my work colleagues. 36 years old and still managing my stress by shouting at the wrong person and bursting into tears . . . Does several years in therapy teach one nothing?!
There are lots of things about a stressful job that are unpleasant. But today I'm particuarly irritated by the way I've had all creative and whimsical thought apparently erased from my brain. Which means that I've been seeing this blog as a chore, rather than the gorgeously self indulgent, silly, rewarding, stimulating and therapeutic hobby that it had been up until very recently. THIS MUST CHANGE.
It's a wonderfully sunny Saturday outside, I've got two whole days to do whatever I want. I must not give into the temptation to lie in bed with my head under the covers for the whole of it.
Luckily, I have found inspiration just when I needed it from the very person who inspired me to set this blog up in the first place. Is that serendipity?
4 comments:
What perfect timing. Back from an exhausting week in London town, catching up with chums and having various work chats. And I now find myself getting a CV together for a consultancy role. Back in London. If you think your years in therapy have taught you nothing, it looks like my year out has taught me nothing either. That video is wonderful. In fact I'm going to pinch it. All I feel this morning is total confusion and anxiety.
Thank you Tams my love. This is exactly why I'm working hard to focus on each fabulous moment I'm living. The finish (or in my case "soon") is nolonger satisfactory to me. I want to be here, in every moment, making the most of every last second of it.
And although I can't sing there's certainly music playing! :)
Hugs and love as always
JoJo xxx
Tamsin,
a. shit, sorry to hear about your aborted glasto trip - you are all safe though and things are only things i guess.
b. that video is genius! thank you for sharing.
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